Friday, August 27, 2004
didn't get a chance to come online yesterday as i played badminton with the bananas till 7pm plus. when i reached home i was very tired, i bathed, ate then slept. first time i had at least 8 hours of sleep when there's school the next day.
played again today. till 8pm. was very tired but a bath really made me feel much better. urgh. need a lot more practice. performed badly. i must really focus and get things right. can't believe how easily defeated i am mentally when i get looked down on. and i not only lost psychologically, my concentration dissolved in self pity and i my legs threathened to abandon me by refusing to move. as this continued i gave up. sad. went to a corner to sit and sulk.
felt worse when it was time to go home. why!!?, i kept on asking myself. )"=
sadded. at least i got my 'daily dose' of ctb. love that dumb guy. but of all times, he had to hurt me. i must not think of love. love is bullshit. waste of time. no one loves me anyway.
oh ya. got a really comical picture of simone. just took it this afternoon. will post it up when i have the time to.
blah. am supposed to print out photos for my table but i don't have my account. the crazy sissy put a password on it. damn. i hope some car knocks him down.
sticks and stones may hurt me, but words hurt me more than anything
get lost joce-lyn.
9:53 PM
